It's been a lonnng time

It's been over a month since I've written. During that time I managed to gain every pound I had lost. I am now back up to my high weight of 123 pounds. I am disgusting. I can't stop eating. I can't say no to food. I hate myself. Back to ana since that seems to be the only way I can lose weight. Healthy eating doesn't work for me. If I don't have any followers, thats ok. I am doing this for me and if you want to be a part of my journey, then the more the merrier!