700 and 115

Short post because I'm exhausted. Ran 7 miles today!! Yayy me that's 700 calories burned. I have eaten roughly 600 calories total thus far. I am going out to dinner with the hubby tonight but he just wants to get some appetizers and I will probably get a salad because that's what I always get.

Anyway the scale at the gym said 115. Thank god! I don't want to cross it off until I see it for 3 straight days so I know it's true.

That's all for now ladies. Starve on my loves.

115

BTW I was 116 this morning. After this semi-binge, I will probably be 117. My mini goal is 115 by the end of the month (inspired by eedee). Its a small victory, but it counts. I just want to be the skinny girl!

bacon

Today started off really good! I had a fat free yogurt and a banana (160 cals) for breakfast. For lunch a turkey and veggie wrap (228 cals). And thennn disaster. The fiance asked me to make these fat free brownies that I make sometimes using vanilla yogurt (120 calories and 0 grams of fat per brownie). That means I had to go to the grocery store. Disaster ensues. Needless to say I ate bacon. Only 1.5 pieces but still, BACON!?! Ohh my. I made the brownies and licked the spatula. FML... Today is a bust. Tomorrow morning, gym and 600 calories!!

home alone

I love days when I'm home alone because I can not eat/eat in my own weird way and no one bugs me! Tonight I am taking a kickboxing class which should be fun and a little harder than my last class. I am going to wear my heart monitor tonight to see how many calories I burn. I ate more than I wanted to today but it was all healthy stuff and I was just starving! And my weight this morning was 116! I hope it sticks.

B- kashi cereal with skim milk = 100
banana = 80
L-turkey sandwich = 150
peach fruit cup = 25
granola bar = 100
D- subway sub, 1/2 the bread taken off = 180

total roughly 665. More than 500 but I will burn it off at kickboxing tonight.

kicking ass, or getting my ass kicked

I worked out hard core today! Took a 3 mile jog then did an hour long weight training class with some friends. The instructor said you burn about 500 cals but I don't believe him. I mean I worked hard and felt my muscles burn worse than I have ever felt before, but I think it was more like 300 cals. Plus the 300 I burned running. Anddd we went and got sushi after and I only ate 1 roll (but ordered 2 like everyone else and took one home for the hubby). And all day I had only consumed 400 cals.

So, B/L= 400
D= 360

Minus calories burned 600?? So my grand total is 160ish!! Yayy me.

biggest loser

So a bunch of ladies at my work are doing this biggest loser competition in which everyone puts in $20 and for a month you try to lose as much weight as you can and whoever loses the most according to body percentage gets the money.

This can be good and bad. Good because competition is great motivation for me to lose weight but at the same time since my way of losing weight will result in me losing a lot in a little bit of time I'm not sure I want everyone knowing my weight on a weekly basis. Some of the girls at work give me enough shit as it is saying how they never see me eat and blah blah (obviously I do eat because I'm a fat cow).

Anyway we will see I guess!

Found out

Oh crap I'm in trouble. I was up late the other night reading every one's blogs and I must have left a web page up or something and my fiance saw it. He said something to me last night when I was drunk and I ignored him. All he said was "I saw some web page you had up about starving yourself." I just acted like I didn't know what he was talking about but crap, crap, crap! Now I have to be extra careful and make sure to eat around him. Shit.

weight gain

This sucks! I am training for a marathon that is in the last week of April and I've been running a lot. Between 3 and 6 miles a day, 5 days a week. On the upside, I am burning a shit ton of calories. The down side, I'm gaining weight. I am currently at 120 despite my efforts to restrict. Since I am burning so many calories I am so incredibly hungry! I crave carbs all the time. I have to eat carbs to give myself energy. It sucks. I also have most likely gained muscle. I really just need to eat before I run then eat fruits and veggies after and that's it!! Any advice, please let me know!

Been awhile

Its been a few days since I've posted. Sorry about that ladies! I've just been embarassed by my lack of will power. I looked at the scale last week and it said 119 pounds! That was entirely too close to my high weight and I freaked out. I'm pretty upset with myself right now but the past few days I have been under 700 so I feel a little bit better. I'm down to 116. Its still 11 pounds away from my April 1st goal weight. Sighh...

This girl that I work with lost 15 pounds in what seemed like a week. When I asked her how she did it she told me she just stopped eating... Ehh at least she's honest! And I'm so jealous.

Well 11 pounds, 21 days. Wish me luck!

whole foods

I made my first trip to whole foods today! It was good because they have these organic kids cliff bars that are packed with vitamins and minerals and only 120 calories. My favorite flavor is chocolate brownie. It is sooo good and I eat half to get my chocolate fix on days I feel like im going insane. Its better than eating real chocolate. At least it has vitamins and oats and stuff. I also got a box of yogi tea which is soo yummy and calorie free!

On the down side since the store focuses on things that are organic, not much of it it fat free or low fat. I did pick up some fat free frozen yogurt. Its not a store I would shop at every day but once and awhile is nice.

I went to the gym today. Still 115 pounds! Ughh. Oh well I will just keep trying hard.

I also read in an article that to get the contestents to lose weight on the biggest loser they take their weight and multiply it by 6 and that is how many calories they should be eating. So, using this formula 115 x 6 = 690. Therefore, I should not ever ever ever go above 690 calories. If theose overweight people can restrict and eat only 6 times their body weight then I can too! Also, they are working out like 8 hours a day and they are probably eating around 1800 calories, but since they are used to eating like 4000 I'm sure it is kind of hard for them.

Well hope you ladies are having a wonderful day! Stay strong amd starve on!

Sorry I haven't posted in a few days. I have been really really sick. I finally broke down and went to the doctor and got some meds. I'm starting to feel better but I still have a terrible cough and sore throat. I haven't been to the gym since Thursday. Yikes! I'm defiantely going tomorrow.

Since I've been sick I haven't been eating that much but I also have been sleeping and laying around so I haven't lost any weight. Today was good though because I worked all morning. Even though it was slow at least I was moving around. I just can't wait to quit my job and go back to school so I'm not surrounded by food every day! I am only weak when I'm at work and the smell of food is extremely tempting when one is starving! For those of you that are curious, I graduated from college last year with my BA in communications. I applied to law school a few months ago. I haven't heard back yet but I have my fingers crossed!

Anyway, today consisted of:

B- Tuna = 70 cals
low fat mayo, 1 tbs = 15 cals
rice cake = 45 cals
S- Baby carrots = 35 cals
L- Protein bar = 170 cals
D- Sushi = 300 cals

Total = 635 calories

21 days til spring and then I will be in real trouble if I'm not down to 105 pounds!!