I haven't posted in a few days and the reason is I am just ashamed at my lack of will power. I'm not eating bad but every time i tell myself 500 calories I eat 900. I haven't felt the urge to purge which really sucks because at least if I purge I feel like I am punishing myself for eating too much.

I baked a cake from scratch for my mother-in-law's birthday yesterday. Good news, I didn't eat any food all day. Bad news, I ate like a pound of icing. I am so disgusted with myself. I can't even see my hipbones any more. Ughh...