mini cupcake

I tried today I really did I promise. I wish I could tell you I did well today, but that would be a big fat lie.

b-0
L- 260
D-500
S-250

1000 calories today. I really sucked. I worked out for an hour and a half though and burned 600+ calories. I lifted too but unfortunately that doesn't burn a lot of calories. The 250 calories snack was a mini red velvet cupcake that my roommate had in the fridge. I didn't want to eat it but I am blaming this one on good 'ol aunt flow. I just needed something sweet. I only had one even though there are many more in there. And I heated it up and the icing was all melting and I have to admit, it was AMAZING. But all that hard work at the gym. The 5 miles I ran, all for nothing. I'm pathetic. I am never going to look good in this new bikini.

I'm sorry to complain this is just the only place I can go to gripe about my weight because everyone else I complain to just says "shut up you're so tiny" but they just don't understand the anxiety and panic that comes with eating more than my allotted amount of calories. Thank you ladies for listening.

And ZEN: thank you for always commenting and making me feel like I am not alone in this.